i like the simplicity of the layout. wow. Ü

tea steams in a paper cup.

the siren's song is defied by ears,
leaves and lips that refrain from coffee.

cigarette smoke swirls.

sipping from my cup, showing no fear of heat,
should encourage you to hold my hands.

breath is blown out.

my eyes encouraged your fingers.
tea leaves on cup-bottom already fortells good fortune.

tea steams in a paper cup. cigarette smoke swirls.
breath held back waiting for silence to break
and Starbucks resumes her song.

back about 2 weeks ago, i volunteered to sell dial-up internet connections over the phone. as of right now, I am not doing that good but I am thinking positively and I believe that I can make this work to my advantage.

a few days before that, i actually dreamt something related to this now job.

I was walking along our street after a major flood. the flood was ebbing already. along the street, near a drainage canal, i found a very big egg - bigger than an ostrich, it could have even passed as a dinosaur egg because it was leathery and it was colored peach and has blotches of crimson all over.

I picked up the egg and carefully laid down the egg on an empty canister. after placing it down, the shell suddenly cracked and inside, there was another egg nested cozily. after a few moments, it also cracked and it this happened till the egg was as small as a chicken egg. it sorta reminded me about those little dolls from germany that contained ever smaller dolls until it was the size of a peanut.

after the last egg cracking, several quail egg-sized eggs came out from it and it was really freaky. I thought it would never stop.

a couple of days after that, I consulted a friend of mine who was also a fellow psychology graduate and i asked her opinion about it. Roceal (pronounced Rochelle) told me that it was a symbolism about the apprehensions or expectations that I have about the new account that I will be transferring into. the eggs also symbolized opportunities that will come my way and the small quail egg-sized eggs were options for advancement.

now, looking back at the dream, I think that the eggs symbolized the things that I would still need to go through so I could progress and delve deeper into my work. so, right now, it there are a few challenges still to face before I could master the art of selling.

I will continue at this and hope for a wonderful surprise!

On my way to work, I was listening to the bus music and it played the song What Matters Most. I don't know why but when it came to the chorus, I cried. I thought about my relationship right now and all the fights that my love and I had and I realized I'm so concerned about the things that could have been different and what I could have done so we could avoid those situations.

I'm so concerned about a lot of things like meeting often, hearing sweet words (that I demand constantly from my Yuki) and his manners. I want to have a perfect relationship, one that would fit into my mold and I am so blinded by that desire that I forgot the real reason for the relationship.

I think I should be contented with the fact that we love each other. The song sort of became an epiphany.

I just heard that someone was shot in our building last Saturday night. According to what I have heard, a call center agent was shot in the workplace by the husband of his "girlfriend." Speculations are that the husband was jealous so he killed the call center agent.

That is scary enough but if you could think about it, he was killed in his work place. Our main concern is how the assasin was able to get in through the guards of the building and their particular company with the gun. One more alarming thing is that the murderer was able to just walk out of the building. Freaky huh?!

Ang mga tao bang laging naiingayan, malakas ang pandinig?

Naobserbahan ko kasi si Mate. Lagi nya ko shinushush kasi daw ang ingay ko. Kaya ko yan naisip.

Follow up question: Yun ba ang dahilan kung bakit si Mate ay QA analist?

I was so happy when my friend from work who was staying with me for a while brought home my gift from my daddy in our exchange gift for Christmas. The gift was simple... it was the album of Isgaard, Golden Key.

It had the song Anima on there and that was the very first song that I ever heard from Isgaard and I immediately fell in love with it. Good songs on the album were Golden Key and Earth Song (which is a revival of a Michael Jackson original).

I was so inspired that I wrote 3 songs just like the ambiance of Isgaard's songs. Ü